16th December, 2014 Tuesday 22:46 Cool

Mom’s marking the papers. My mom’s a teacher. She teaches the fundamentals of fitness. Dad’s watching 24. And me, I’m listening to 5SOS. I’m too exhausted from school so I gave up doing homework that are due Thursday and Friday.

Have been stalking Michael, Luke, Ashton and Calum for days and it never gets boring, I tell you! They are the reasons I thank God for creating me because he already created 5SOS. I’m unconditionally grateful to him. Despite the ups and downs in life, I can still find the beauty in the immaculate imperfections because they are what make life beautiful, unique and worthwhile.

I really love life. I really want to follow Jesus but I’m Catholic. This problem has been bugging me for the past few years and I still haven’t found a solution to it. Sigh.

Oh God, Amnesia is so good.

Real bands save fans.

The truth has been spoken and I can’t agree with it more. Before 5SOS, my life had no meaning. After joining the 5SOS family, my life had never been more wonderful and merry because this serious band is enchanted and those boys are all very cuddly and sweet and extremely good-natured people with hearts of gold. Not to mention, they are adorable and quirky as hell. In conclusion, real bands do save fans and I have a belief that real fans save bands, too.

School was meh. Chloe and I had to take kids from my elementary school for a tour of our school and I tell you what, kids are never easy to take care of. I don’t mean kids are demons (the kids today behaved) but it was just that both my friend and I weren’t in the mood and had been feeling under the weather for the whole day and the tour didn’t sound amusing to us at all.

In the morning assembly, 12th graders held a farewell speech. It wasn’t a big deal, to be honest, but with second thought, it is. Next year, I will be receiving cards from the eldest seniors at school. Two years later, I will be fighting against the education system in order to get a place in college. In my bio, I said that I didn’t succumb to the pressure and fear but under the merciless and brainless system, I can’t do much. I have to obey and follow the rules in order to have a stable life with a stable income in the future.

The path ahead is dark, treacherous and dull as hell but I will find a way to walk through the obstacles without ending my life in the process. After all, I’m a realistic optimist and I still have gazillions of things that I want to do and I just feel like I’m not done with life yet. I don’t feel complete and I want more.

Everyone thinks one life isn’t enough, am I right?

I got criticized by my Chinese teacher today at school and it sucked. I’m a Leo and I tend to stupidly and stubbornly cling to my pride. I have been trying hard to ameliorate the pride issue and I believe I’m not as annoying and irritating as I was in the past. Still I felt defeated and humiliated because I had paid a lot of effort on my piece of writing she used as a bad example.

Chinese is never my cup of tea. We are not an item. Whenever my friends tell me to try harder next time and that to work harder, I always end up sniffing and wiping invisible tears from my bleary eyes because I’m tired of people pitying me and I can’t stand people reminding me of meaningless things anymore. I don’t want pity from my friends. I definitely don’t want them to view me as someone vulnerable and a person who has a low self-esteem. I want to be seen as equally intelligent and that I want to be admired by my peers. I know you may think that I’m being arrogant and mindless but who doesn’t want to be admired and praised?

What am I looking for?

I’m longing for a breakthrough that can shoot me to instant success, fame and fortune.

There are no shortcuts on the roads to success and prosperity. So, I’m going to have to work on that problem if I want to become a person that is destined for greatness.

By the way, I took the Biology test today. I think I did okay (?) I don’t know and I don’t want to linger on it. All I want for this last week of school before Christmas break is passing this Biology test. I’m having my fingers and toes crossed!

24‘s about to end. Dad’s telling me to tidy up my desk.

I guess this is where and when we part.

Until we write again.