I dreamt of a childhood friend last night. We live in the same village. We used to walk each other home in the last year of elementary school and he still stubbornly cling to me at that time despite my constant neglect, “bullying” and hot temper. That Cancer boy was really in love with me but I didn’t acknowledge his feelings. There are times I long for him now when I’m a bit older but I quickly dismiss those thoughts as soon as they were born. After all, we haven’t talked to each other for years since we went to different middle schools.
In my dream, I wandered deep into the village. I didn’t know which house was his so I called for him in the middle of the concrete pavement between rural houses. Just when I was about to leave with frustration, defeat and utter sadness, he was there ten feet in front of me. I sprinted towards him and gave him a deep passionate kiss on his right cheek. He smiled and said something cheesy that made my eyes water. He even wrote me a letter which gave me an intimidating feeling because I’m afraid of commitment and possession.
When I woke up, I dressed up and almost headed towards the deeper part of the village but I stopped myself from doing anything stupid because I realized it was all a meaningless dream and there is nothing between me and Cancer Boy, actually. I felt relieved and under the weather since I didn’t make stupid mistakes, such as finding him and giving him a proper kiss, and the whole romantic situation was only fake and imaginary images inside my stupid head.
It was so real. Its realness made me want to cry. The dream was pure torture as it gave me what I value most in life and then snatching it away from me and blasting me with brutal reality.
Jeanine and her mom’s here for dinner. They’re chatting with my parents downstairs. I invited Jeanine to join me and my Sims family but I think she has forgotten it.
Well, I think it’s only me, my Sims and my sentimental dreams.